Nightmare of speak up

Sometimes things wont even get through them even when I speak up.

They asked why do I hold everything inside me and begin the silent treatment?
I wont even considered it as the silent treatment because I just keep my mouth shut from saying anything useless or something that will hurt them back. I know how the feeling is.

They blamed me for keeping everything by myself. It just, I'm trying to be patience.

They told me to let everything out. But then, they blamed me for letting everything out: yeah, feels like I've walked to the dead path

The thing is, even after I told them the reasons is, and seems like nothing will changed the situation.. Is bothered us even more. It feels like the problems is weighed even more than before and I feel there's no point to make a move at first place

The reality is, they can't even accept that they have hurt you. Twisting the story by putting you in a desperate situations by blaming your behavior instead

It feeld same at the end. Got yourself blamed. Sometimes it's better to keep silent than to tell others how you feel because it hurts knowing they can hear you, but not understand you.