Letter to my own self

0245 HRS

To my own self-if you're still alive and reading this in another few years

I know you're crying right now
I know you're holding up your tears right now
I know you're hurt right now
I know you're battling with your mind right now
I know you're trying to protect the wall that you built
I know you're trying to escape the real life and get into your own world
I know you're trying to be strong to pleased people and make them happy
I know you're trying to put so much efforts in every things you do

I know you can't sleep at night, fighting all of this mundane things to survive and keep yourself alive
I know its happened everytime everyday

I know you've been trying so hard to shut your mouth from expose any bad things about others
I know you've been lying to yourself and saying  that "its okay. Things will get better" everyday-everytime-every minutes-every second
I know you've been holding yourself from those people who mocking you, yelling to your face, putting you down,

I know you're tired--so much! And too tired
I know its hurt
I know its not gonna be normal or usual as before but keep this in your mind that everything's happened, must be a reason to make you strong till now till today
Inknow your heads hurt a lot

I know-- i know all of it
Hold on. I'm gonna save you. HE's gonna save you.
Please be strong till the end of your last breath. Please don't give up.